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been weeks since i last blogged. tired out of my mind as usual.. right now im desperately trying to stay awake while my lunch is being cooked. im such a sleepyhead nowadays..

Anyway, quite a bit of changes of late. my ATGM course has started just last week and ive moved to Pasir Laba camp for the next month. its been quite a good change, with regimentation not half as strict back when i was in my previous camp. my platoon is finally back together after the drivers finished their courses and we're back at full strength again. well, the course kinda brings me back to JC life.. the numerous boring lectures where i try to keep myself awake.. as well as the thick lecture notes that i have to study. ah well i guess i shouldnt complain since life here is way better than it has ever been during my army days, of which has already amounted to almost 6 months! NOT that i actually enjoy army, time seems to fly by NORMALLY now, unlike back a couple of months ago.. where an hour would feel like weeks and a week would feel like years! i guess im finally getting adjusted to army life, nonetheless i cant wait for my ORD and i can finally become a civillian again!

Weeee sona finally came back last week and gosh its been so long since we caught up and boy was it fun =P its been an exhausting and very unhealthy weekend haha. Drinking and sheesha and junk food.. ek, definitely not good for me but there was quite a bit of drunken fun wahaha! such a shame that u have to go so soon, so lets make the minutes count =)

)x~
12:41 PM



sigh, remedial training (RT) every Saturday untill get IPPT gold, the 9.15sec 2.4km timing seems rather impossible for me to obtain considering that ive always been weak in my running. In addition, gonna need to be able to jump like a frog to get my gold. Oh well, at the moment i cant even get silver! just freaking 4cm away.

army life has kind of taken a twist for the better. im actually starting to enjoy my time there. getting to know my platoon mates better, makes life kinda fun! even the crazy platoon sergeant of mine opened up to us, joined us in our "talk cock" sessions and joked around with us. nonetheless he still has his fire and will use it if we even piss him off the slightest.. Been spending a large amount of time in camp playing PSP, previously the craze was medal of honour.. now its bomberman, glad to say i rock at both haha! Finally finished playing my need for speed and now i got no more games to play for my psp! ahhhh!

damn it, i want my driving license, i wanna drive! for those who dont know, im actually about half way through my driving lessons. already passed all my theory tests.. stupid NS disrupted my driving lessons and i havent had the motivation and determination to carry on my lessons. book out times are indeed precious and i cant bear to see my hours burnt at the driving centre! truth be told, maybe its not a good idea that i get my license.. ill end up as my parents chauffer! even if i get my license i doubt ill be driving on my own much considering the insane fuel prices at the moment.

ah well, i guess ill just stick with being a lazy bum =P enjoying my book outs, resting at home, hanging out with friends, just doing things i wanna do for myself.

not much longer b4 sona returns! yay, miss her

)x~
11:27 PM



So, a week breezed by me so quickly. One whole week of block leave got in a flash, going to be booking back into that misery camp again tomorrow night. Sigh, most of my friends there are going to be on course in a couple of days. Time to make new ones i guess!

Anyway, this week was kinda topsy turvy. Things didnt really turn out as i planned but i have got to say, it was fun anyway! i wish my break were longer =(



I came across a comment that got me thinking, suggesting that Singaporeans are second class citizens in Singapore and im sad to say, that im leaning in favour of that statement. Yes, im saying this because im bitter about being forced to serve 2 years of national service, but that is not the only reason. I cant remember where i read this statistic from, but 6 out of 10 new jobs created are taken up by foreigners (thank god this isnt a GP essay). Scholarships are reserved specifically for foreign students whereas local students with decent grades may not even make it into a local university. All these while the young men of the nation are forced to enlist into the army for 2 whole years, one of the longest service of NS in the world.

Day to day activities have also led me to my conclusion. I recall distinctly a particular incident at a shopping mall. There was this sales lady, extremely chao bin (black face) towards me when i seeked assistance from her. I thought maybe she was having a bad day.. or maybe she just didnt like me but i realised she was like that to her other clients as well. Then, a Caucasian stepped into the store and immedietly her face lit up. I pondered whether it could be because he found him attractive.. but i highly doubt it. He was old, and no Richard Gere.. fat, old and wrinkly so.. yea... Anyway, she greeted him as if he were knighted, her sentences littered with "sir"s and "thank you"s. it turned out that he was a "NATO" kinda person, no no not that international organisation but... in a "No Action Talk Only" kind of way. After wasting a huge amount of saliva and time, he didnt purchase anything at all. Still the sales person was very delighted with the opportunity to serve him, instead of other local clients.

Such an incident left me with a sour taste in my mouth. Of course this is only 1 incident that ive mentioned, but ive witnessed more. Maybe im unlucky to run into these kinda black sheep, but undoubtedly they have left a lasting impression on me.

Neither am i condemning NS in my post, of course its done its part for the nation, giving the men a common ground, and a reason to protect the country. All im saying is that, a foreigner, white skinned in particular, have been given more respect and favour in Singapore.

Still i like living in Singapore, more so than anywhere else in the world. Thats why i serve NS, but yes, im sore.

)x~
10:47 PM

Had a good week, an early bookout. Finished my heli live repelling this week and gosh it was sooo fun i wish i could do it again!

gah im bored.. liam's always at sona's now, just don't come home knocked up k? cos i know u'll make me take care of the kid

anyway, earlier this week an incident happened that really pissed me off

dont u hate it when ur exes use some fked up excuse to contact u again? fking hell nothing pisses me off more den that. its over, move on. its funny how suddenly they remember a book they've not wanted frm 3 months nd it becomes an essential they absolutely need. Good thing that sarah's been very supportive through everything. sigh.

caught the new mummy movie with fiona over the week and though the movie was rather crappy, it was great fun!

Met up with sarah for some ice-cream, havnt had good icecream in a long long time. Have been settling for cheap $1 icecream that road side uncle sells haha! Wow i havnt laughed that hard in ages!

Spent some time with my dad. Recorded Fearless from last week which i couldnt catch because i had to book back into camp. So, we watched the movie together.. we didnt talk much but i enjoyed his company =)

someones ringing so ciao for now!

)x~
6:00 PM



Wow, a lot has happened over the past week. Its been about a month since being posted to my Guards unit and i think the past week has been the most eventful one. Finished my 2km coastal swim which was surprisingly easy thanks to the current, as well as a 20km route march. The march was easier than my 24km march in BMT mainly due to the fact that it was along east coast park! On a sad note, my platoon got divided into scouts or "ATGM" (anti tank guided missle). Out of over 40 troopers, only 3 got selected to become ATGM troopers and i am one of them.. Im really sad to be split up from most of my friends whom ive forged friendships with over the past couple of weeks. What hurts most is that we only started to click recently and already we are separated. I guess such stuff happen all the time and its part and parcel of life right? School friends, sec school and JC, then army BMT friends and now unit platoon friends. To make things worse, one of my best friends has left for aus =( sigh...

The weekend was fun tho, booked out earlier den usual because there wasnt any NDP this week. Hung out with new friends and caught up with old ones. Caught red cliff today, havnt watched a chinese movie in ages! glad to say that it was rather enjoyable.... but bleh! i still havnt managed to catch dark knight!!

ah well, im gonna b booking in soon
xoxo

)x~
7:35 PM



Another bookout!

To my surprise training hasnt been as bad as i thought. i had two slack days and then my nights out where i went to the esplande. had pizza and icecream after so long! got to know my army mates a little better. and then on saturday i went out again at night with sarah after bookout, great night for some reasons =)

Sunday was fun even though my coms fked, or more like my nets fked. spent most of e day fixing it but nothing worked! sigh. now i have to keep my laptop next to my com to play e games i wanted to play during bookout. all my friends are slowly leaving to go off for uni. joy left last week and sona's the next to go. gonna miss u all =(

Today was great! Was out all day, met up with lots of people. Me and sarah went to get a psp from sam and then out again for POTATOES =P. sarah tried to play e psp in the cab but she kept dying lol. gonna leave it with her next week so she can practise lol. introduced sona and sarah and i was glad that they got along well =). went shopping with sona after (teaching her to shop by herself at uni) and then had to rush home to eat dinner with me family before book in.

Im happy that things are finally coming together. NS isnt as bad as i expected and its even getting a bit fun. had some really good and memorable experiences there. im glad i have such supportive friends and family, and of course, since the last two months or so, sarah =)

Im off to play psp before book in.
Ciao!

)x~
7:41 PM



A lot has happened these past couple of weeks, lots of ups and down.

1st was POP which followed with my block leave which i most certainly did enjoy. Meeting up with my friends from school and BMT was really fun, especially going to mambo after that. Haven't been clubbing in a long long time and it reminded me how fun it was =P

Then came posting day when i got the biggest shock ever, realising that i was posted to 1 Guards to become a recce trooper. Ive heard many nasty stories about how terrible the training as a recce trooper is. Not only am i a recce trooper, im a GUARDS recce trooper, the freaking elite of the infantry. It took me quite awhile to come to terms with my posting. Feeling emo and depressed was unavoidable. Only now am i beginning to accept the fact that im going to be stuck at 1 guards whether i like it or not, so im going to have to make the most of it. Most probably, im gonna emerge from it with a hot bod ;) haha!

I just finished my 1st week of training in my new unit and i have to say that it isnt what i expected at all. The regimentation was way worse than during BMT.. although the physical aspects of training hasnt gone into full swing yet, we are all already dead tired. I cant imagine how im going to cope when the physical training seriously begins..

Anyway, met up with my classmates today, had a farewell lunch for Joy. Bye bye joy, ill miss u =P youve been a great friend! <3 friends

getting rather tired, going to catch up on my lost sleep.

)x~
10:18 PM



POP LO!

I have mixed feelings about my POP, part of me is glad that the BMT phase of my army life is finally over and i have my block leave to enjoy. Another part of me is sad that i have to part with the friends made during BMT. I hope we manage to keep in touch!

Anyway im currently having my one and a half week long block leave that ends on the 23rd this month. Been rather ill the 1st couple of days, but the good news is im finally getting better and i can start to enjoy my block leave! In fact, went to the PC show yesterday with my family and got a new tv! And then i met up with sona at vivo for superdog (she eats so slowly -.-!) and tried to find a good present for fathers day. Found a good shirt for myself instead lol. So taking dad out to dinner tonight.

Having 10+ of my sch mates over tomorrow, which should be fun since i havent seen them since timbre a few weeks back. Got a lot of new music to listen to so i be off now

Ciao!

)x~
1:58 PM



Back from SIT test, with a hurt ankle, a face full of breakouts and insect bites all over my body. Im just glad that im done with outfield at least for my BMT period. Was a rather short week, booked in on tues and out again on sat.

im so glad i can stop worrying about universities. i received an offer by SMU for law which i accepted of course. I know i should be jumping up and down but im not. As some of u might know, i only started considering doing law after receiving my A level results due to my GP grades. But im glad nonetheless, its a feat. Finally my parents are satisfied haha.

I spent yesterday night playing mahjong with me friends. The last time i played mahjong b4 that was back in primary school.. so i was rather shocked when i actually managed to win a couple of times haha. Always thought that its a old aunties game, never remembered it to be actually enjoyable haha.

Ive been having quite a lot of free time on my hands recently, spent most of it with my friends and loved ones as well as meeting new people. Im glad to say, im having fun! Never thought id actually be having fun during NS. I imagined by bookouts to be emo-ish.. my bookins to be depressing. But it isnt. Even bookins arent that bad anymore. Sure i do feel a little emo while on that bus back to the ferry terminal.. and on the ferry terminal back to camp.. but once that emo feeling passes, the friendships formed take over. im actually getting a little sad that BMT is ending soon.. in only roughly 2 weeks its going to be over, i hope i can keep in touch with them after POP (graduation).

i never expected this, but i am a happy person now =)

)x~
3:49 PM



WeEeeeeEeEee, BOOKOUT!

Just finished my field camp, apparently one of the more defining moments of my BMT life. I have got to say that it is really an unforgetable experience! Not showering at all for 6 days, shitting in a field full of flies and crawling 100m with live rounds firing over your head, one heck of an experience. Id like to think that ive grown and changed for the better during this 6 days, surviving in the jungle was a true test. I pushed both my mental and physical limits... the initial 8km route march was pure hell for me and i almost succumbed to heat injury but managed to push on thanks to my buddies. Having 2 buddies really makes things much easier, building our basha was a walk in the park especially since one of them was a scout.

As most of u might know, ive had difficulties with my fitness, but im glad to say that i have overcomed one of the most menacing moments of BMT life, in fact, i aced it! i managed to get the incentive offered for digging up the shellscrape. I did not just finish it fast, but it was HUGE! My buddies shellscrapes werent completed by night, so they slept in mine. So... my shellscrape could fit 3 people, and there was still plenty of space! haha!

*ek, tomorrow got law interview!*

getting new accessories for my room! quite excited to remodel it.. guess absence makes the heart fonder since my parents are being so nice to me haha!

also, HEY, this one's for you
POTATO
makeup is gaaay =P
see you tomorrow! NO MAKEUP ALLOWED

)x~
10:50 PM



Hi everyone, havnt blogged in a really long time but here i am again.

Anyway, as you should already know.. im in the army now. I think im adjusting pretty well to the army, thanks to my experience back in my NCC days, im not having problems adjusting to the regimental lifestyle at all. In fact, i think that my days as a NCC cadet, we faced harsher discipline. I just did my IPPT (aka NAPFA for students) a couple of days ago, and i think i failed my run by a couple of seconds. Im quite confident that i should be able to clear it by the time i finish my BMT. So... im basically quite happy in the army, making new friends and stuff, NS doesnt seem quite as bad as i expected it to be!

TOMORROW IS MY FIELD CAMP! ahhh.. its one of the hallmarks of BMT, which usually comes much later. Its only my 3rd week in the army and im facing field camp already. I hope i can cope with the physical and mental strains of the camp, just looking at the other companies return from their field camp scares the crap out of me. They seriously look like zombies... hunched over and covered in dirt, their green uniform turned brown. EEEK i hope i can cope!

Encountered some minor problems today, glad that i have my friends around to help me out. I know that im going to be alright, with all u guys around, i have a lot to be optimistic about!

)x~
4:33 PM



WEEEEEEEEE!!! A's ENDED ALREADY!!!

I should probably be happy about this but this isnt entirely the case. Im enlisting into NS in April so that leaves be about 4 months of freedom. Since A's ended, i havnt exactly been using my time well, been going out heaps and playing computer games, i hope that i dont end up wasting away my holidays (NOT that i consider spending time with my friends a waste of time!!)

Talking about friends, i miss 2SC8 already! Prom has just ended a couple of days ago, accompanied by quite a bit of puking on my part -.-", but it has only just hit me that the whole class may never really get together as a whole class ever again. I know i have been harping on this "i miss my class" topic for the last couple of posts but i really do! With NS looming ahead for the guys, and the girls probably going to look for jobs, its going to be hard to find time for gatherings and such.. im probably going to go search for jobs too, and yea you heard me right jobS with a "s". Im more interested in the work experience rather than the pay so i will be job hopping. If anyone is interested, tell me!! Then can job hop together =P

One of the many good things about this long awaited break, i get to meet my dear almost everyday! In fact, im about to head out soon, going to her house since she is going to cook breakfast for me!

Anyway i gotta go now, or else im gonna be late!

*misses 2SC8*

)x~
8:02 AM



oooooo its been such a long time since ive blogged but i really didnt have the mood.

Anyway, prelims has ended quite some time ago, grades are pretty satisfactory that i have to say.. mugging is going back into full swing for As!

i still cant believe that next week is going to be the last full week of school.. after that its going to be NS already. how quickly time flies.. it seemed like just a couple of months ago when i thought to myself "still got 2 more years till i have to worry about NS" but now its like just months away.. apart from NS, theres JC life too.. i have never seriously thought about life after JC. Been trying not to think abt NS, thus never really thinking past it either. Occasionally thinking about university but never really giving it much thought. and it only seemed like yesterday when i blogged abt the "last volleyball day" when i felt so emo as though it was like the last day of sch, and soon.. the last day of sch will indeed arrive!! NoOOOOoo

past 2 years have been absolutely the best ever. i truly am thankful for all the splendid things that have happened over the course of this 2 years! would hate to have to part with all the people ive met in JC especially e class.

gah, dont really know what to blog about.. just feeling emo with the sudden realisation of how soon school is going to end. u might think im crazy for actually enjoying going to school, but ive never been one who goes to school to study, sch is more about fun for me so thats enough said! i wish my whole class gets retained!!!! *guess thats rather mean and selfish of me but what the heck ya?!* haha, i certainly am not thinking straight..

Sigh tomorrow is Saturday, and yet it doesnt feel like a weekend.. i dont even like weekends anymore. i feel more guilty than usual if i dont study on weekends.. GAAAAAAAAAH! hate studying hate studying hate studying hate studying hate studying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye... *studying*

)x~
10:03 PM



PRELIMS IS IN 1 WEEKS TIME!!!

time to panic ya?

Anyway.. just finished studying vectors, managed to do most of the questions in the TYS so im quite pleased with myself haha.

Yesterday was the last PE lesson of my JC life, never thought id say this but i really will miss it. PE lessons had a huge part in bonding the class.. a class that i have come to love so very dearly. Come to think of it, yesterday felt like it was the "last day of school". After yesterday, everyone would be switching into mugging gear, no more time for fun. The next time we all see each other in school, it wont feel the same anymore..

I know theres still a couple of months left of my JC life, but i still cannot help but feel sad whenever i think about how it will come to an end soon. I have so many wonderful memories of the school.. from our weekly gathering at the wishing longkang to decide whether or not to pon PW, to curry + rice yong tau fu and even the volleyball games!

i will treasure every memory and make the most of whatever time we have left as a class.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd Need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
To always get me through the dayAnd make it okay
I miss you...

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like youI love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're goneThe words I need to hear
To always get me through the day
And make it okayI miss you...

We were made for each other
Out here foreverI know we were
Yeah yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can only breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missin' you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missin', too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
Will always get me through the day
And make it okayI miss you...

Avril Lavigne~When You're Gone

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

)x~
10:31 PM



gah!!! its less than a month to prelims and i have not even started on revision!!! omg im gonna die.. like zomg im gonna die!!!!!!!

ok.. spaz attack over.

http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=21068

go take a look at this, really funny stuff!!

This Saturday, Interact installation!! finally get to step down!!

Anyway, im sick now -.-"

I wanna read Harry Potter, BUT im not buying the book...

)x~
5:02 PM

http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=24079

video of a 4 year old kid dialling 911 to ask the cops to help him with math.. if only the cops here could do JC math..

)x~
6:54 PM



The school vacation has ended, and the 1st week of school has already went by oh so quickly. Ive made a resolution to start studying once school started and im pleased to say that im doing so!!! Although ive been taking a little bit of time off here and there im glad to see that im making some progress!

40th anniversary of National Service... eeks, i shudder at the thought that i would be one of those botaks in just a few months time.. having to part with my family and friends to get tortured at the hands of the dreaded PTIs and drill sergeants. At least NS is no longer what it was decades ago, where officers would hurl verbal abuse punctuated by hokkien vulgarities at recruits (at least not as often..). Apparently the food is now edible too, guess thats something i can rejoice about. Still, NS is not something im looking forward to, i dont want to have to leave everyone i care for behind.. while being "tortured" in Tekong. I guess thats why ive been working hard for my NAPFA, im determined not to have to spend that extra couple of weeks in that hellhole, much rather spend time with my friends and family!

Then again, everyone who has experienced NS has said that its a wonderful experience that have helped them grow stronger both physically and mentally, so it cant be all bad, right??? With NS looming just ahead of me, im going to have to make the most of my time left. Going to have to spend a large portion of my time mugging for prelims/A's.. but its gonna be fun fun fun for me once thats over!

Time for me to give my notes the attention they deserve.. *sigh* mug mug mug

)x~
6:59 PM



At the airport, an individual, later discovered to be a school teacher, was arrested trying to board a flight while in possession of a ruler, a protractor, a set-square, and a calculator.
The police believe the man is a member of the notorious Al-gebra movement. He is being charged with carrying weapons of math instruction. Al-gebra is a very fearsome cult, indeed. They desire average solutions by means and extremes, and sometimes go off on a tangent in a search of absolute value. They consist of quite shadowy figures, with names like "x" and "y", and, although they are frequently referred to an "unknowns", we know that really belong to a common denominator and are part of the axis of medieval with coordinates in every country.

As the great Greek philandereIsosceles used to say, there are 3 sides to every triangle, and if God had wanted us to have better weapons of math instruction, He would have given us more fingers and toes.

Therefore, I'm extremely grateful that our government has given us a sine that it is intent on protracting us from these math-dogs who are so willing to disintegrate us with calculus disregard, these statistic bastards love to inflict plane on every sphere of influence. Under the circumferences, it's time we differentiated their root, made our point, and drew the line.
These weapons of math instruction have the potential to decimalise everything in their math on a scalene never before seen unless we become exponents of a Higher Power and begin to factor-in random factor-in random facts or vertex.

As our Great Leader would say "Read my ellipse. Though they would continue to multiply, their days are numbered and the hypotenuse will tighten around their necks."

)x~
10:11 PM



Time flies by so darn quickly, its already the 3rd week of the holidays... and ive barely started on my studying and im feeling soooo guilty about it. Not going to have much time to catch up over the next few days too. Currently, my throat is giving me one hell of a time, i dont know whats wrong with it.. it just feels as if something is there, having a problem swallowing. Been plagueing me for almost a week but it just got worse, probably hav to visit the doctors soon..

As the A levels draw closer.. CCA activities start to decrease, tomorrow is likely to be the last time i meet the peeps of MCYC. Its going to take some getting used to now that my wednesdays are going to be free. (in a good way) Im sure i will miss those people, they infused their element of fun into the wednesdays, visitting the care centre, playing games with them. Mainly just table tennis.. with su but oh well it was still fun!!! i guess im going to have to use my wednesdays to study eh? knowing me.. no chance in hell thats going to happen!

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/365143

PLAY DIS GAME!

)x~
10:24 AM



Okay I'm posting this for him... Since I saw blood wrung from turnips rather than him blogging.. So um, gonna blog about um, okay um.. he's watching Ocean's 11? And he FINALLY got new shoes! Although his taste kinda sucks... okay actually sucks a lot.. He thinks Brad Pitt is hot! HA! His Chinese is worse than mine! So surprised! Although he speaks it better than me... but HE CAN'T READ IT HA! So yep done FOR NOW..

)x~
10:54 PM



Just had my NAPFA today, had both my happy and sad moments.

It started out with chin ups, which didnt cause me too much problems, missed my A by 1!!! ARGH! Next up was shuttle run, last year i didnt do well and i think i failed by 0.1 sec or something, thankfully i made it this time. After training for my Sit'N'Reach for the past couple of weeks, i finally managed to pass it!! Sit-ups next, no problem too. However there was still the standing board jump as well as the 2.4, both of which i had absolutely no confidence in passing. I couldnt clear the Board Jump station, couldnt get the minimum requirement of a D to ensure that i wont have to waste an extra 2 months in NS

Then, miracle happened. I PASSED MY FREAKING 2.4! Completely unexpected, my next best timing was like 30 secs slower so yea, was really shocked. I guess i owe it to my wonderful classmates who helped cheer me on. Fiona especially for running with me and pacing me (guess i owe you lunch)!! And Jing Wei too, although you will probably never see this but what the heck, couldnt have passed without the help from the both of you!

Quite disappointed that i still couldnt clear my jump even after staying back till past 7pm to attempt it over and over.. but still glad that i managed to pass my 2.4!! 1st time ever since like primary school haha -.-" guess im like really unfit eh? Anyway this is like my new found motivation to work out and make sure that i get my silver ASAP so i wont have to waste 2 months! *im going to pass..im going to pass... im going to pass, i hope....*

ANYWAY I just wanna give a big thank you to anyone who has helped me in any way!!

)x~
11:00 PM

lol.. MATH! hahahhaha!!

)x~
10:21 PM



havnt blogged in a really long time, really couldnt been bothered!

Oh well, so much has happened since!! i absolutely love the gifts you gave me!!

Sat was fun, very fun, cant wait for next time! Then after that had some amazing race thingy for interact club, then after that went to holland V, omg the laksa!!!! delicious!

Yesterday had a terrible headache that left me no choice but to go home.. thankfully it went away after taking a nap

Today just had taboo competition, dunno if we won. The competitors were split into 2 rooms cuz there were too many teams. My class emerged top scorers amongst those in our room, dont know how those in the other rooms did. Doesnt matter if we dont win but it was quite an enjoyable event, lots of laughs!

Enough blogging abt daily events, getting BORING!

More than 1 month has passed, and i have to say that it has certainly been an unforgettable experience! loved every single moment of it! I never expected it to be like this, after all its something i promised myself id never do when i first entered JC. Im actually kind of glad that i broke that promise, considering the amount of fun that i have gained from this experience... yay!

bah, dont really know what to blog about.. got a bag of potato chips beside me... tempted to open it.. eeeek.. i think ill save it for later when i watch CSI. >_<

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9:09 PM



Long weekend.. 3 days break. Been waiting for this weekend since 2 weeks ago, for some reasons. Things went well.. but others, not too well. Why is it always like this? When one thing starts to take a turn for the better, another just turns into CRAP?!

Got back the rest of my term exam results quite some time ago. Did better than i expected, but I'm still not pleased with my math and chemistry. Already considering enrolling myself for tuition in these 2 subjects but i doubt my parents would agree.

Oh well, school is back in full swing again but I'm still in that slacking mode. More tests coming up, actually i have one this Tuesday, STUPID gp test.

Hoping that the good things get better and for the bad things to become good..

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4:51 PM



Received my results for my Maths Term Exam, as expected i failed it. Didnt do as badly as i thought i would have done, managed a 21/50.. hopefully i can get an E when its combined with my test marks. Bah.. getting sick just talking about math.

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10:55 PM



This weekend, soooo busy! BUT fun, probably the best ive ever had, especially today =) Spent so much money tho.. got scolded like crazy haha, i think next week cannot eat anything, no more money left!

Got warned by teacher to get my hair cut by monday.. guess what, its still long! hahaha, didnt get it cut, plan to get it cut after school on monday. So what if i get caught tomorrow, get forced to go to a barber after school? No difference since thats what i plan to do anyway haha...

Drank a little alcohol yesterday night, still havnt experienced being drunk before... sigh... dunno why i want to get drunk but yea, i do! Call me weird, i wanna experience a hangover too -.-" Maybe im going crazy cuz of lack of sleep... yawn..bye

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10:14 PM



TERMS IS FINALLY OVER!!!! YAY!!

I get to celebrate and relax now, at least untill i get back my results.. sigh.. results.. dont think im gonna do as well as i hoped to, almost comfirmed to fail math. Messed up on my biology and chemistry paper to, now all im hoping for is to escape SSP.

Yesterday went out to eat lunch + watch movie + play pool after chem paper, enjoyable =) Hopefully this weekend is gonna be better!!

Im high!

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10:02 PM



This week has been rather awkward.

Spent soooo much time mugging for terms, way more than id ever expect myself to. Spent total of 15 hours on complex numbers and differential equations and yet i still cant do a single tutorial question, sigh feel like such a retard.

But then, nice stuff did happen =). Wont forget 13th march. And that brief moment of bliss today completely made my otherwise hellish week, wonderful!

^.^

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11:16 PM



The holidays have finally arrived.. however it doesnt feel one bit like a holiday. In fact ive been studying more since the holidays have started than while school was still on. Ive had 9 days to study for my term exams that start right after the holiday, which makes out to be roughly 2 days per subject. I dont know if im going to be able to make it this time, it really feels as if i still have so much work that needs to be done, currently ive only "finished" studying my econs, but i cant remember anything that i have studied!! For the other subjects its even worse.. i havnt even read the notes!! im dead.....



Jack wakes up with a huge hangover after attending his company's Christmas Party. Jack is not normally a drinker, but the drinks didn't taste like alcohol at all. He didn't even remember how he got home from the party. As bad as he was feeling, he wondered if he did something wrong.

Jack had to force himself to open his eyes and the first thing he sees is a couple of aspirins next to a glass of water on the side table. And, next to them, a single red rose! Jack sits up and sees his clothing in front of him, all clean and pressed. He looks around the room and sees that it is in perfect order, spotlessly clean. So is the rest of the house. He takes the aspirins, cringes when he sees a huge black eye staring back at him in the bathroom mirror. Then he notices a note hanging on the corner of the mirror written in red with little hearts on it and a kiss mark from his wife in Lipstick:

"Honey, breakfast is on the stove,I left early to get groceries to make you your favorite dinner tonight.I love you, darling! Love, Jillian"

He stumbles to the kitchen and sure enough, there is hot breakfast, steaming hot coffee and the morning newspaper. His son is also at the table, eating. Jack asks, "Son... What happened last night?"

"Well, you came home after 3 A.M., drunk and out of your mind. You fell over the coffee table and broke it, and then you puked in the hallway, and got that black eye when you ran into the door.

Confused, he asked his son, "So, why is everything in such perfect order and so clean? I have a rose, and breakfast is on the table waiting for me??"

His son replies, "Oh THAT! Mom dragged you to the bedroom, and when she tried to take your pants off, you screamed, "Leave me alone, I'm married!!"

Broken Coffee Table $239.99
Hot Breakfast $4.20
Two Aspirins $.38
Saying the right thing, at the right time. . . PRICELESS!!!

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7:10 PM



This week has gone by really quickly, plagued with interact stuff to do as well as homework that was due. Luckily i managed to finish everything in time, but i forgot to submit my assignment, how foolish of me.

Chinese results was released on friday and i got a....D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! zomg a D!!!! u might think im nuts for celebrating with a D, but im really happy! i was seriously afraid that i might have gotten an E or a S so this is really surprising for me, in a good way! anyway im not gonna keep talking abt chinese cuz there are quite a number of people who are very unhappy with their results.

Went shopping yesterday, got myself a new wallet as well as a t-shirt. The wallet was $40 while the t-shirt was $53, my mum freaked out when she found out that i spent so much. I was aware that my mom would have such a reaction to the price of the items so i threw the receipt away, BUT i forgot that there was the pricetag still on them so yea... she found out... got lectured like mad haha.

Yesterday was fun, especially pool muahhahaha ;)

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5:45 PM



Chinese Proverbs

Virginity like bubble - one prick all gone
Man who run in front of car get tired
Man who run behind car get exhausted
Man with hand in pocket feel cocky all day
Foolish man give wife grand piano, wise man give wife upright organ
Man who walk through airport turnstile sideways going to Bangkok
Man with one chopstick go hungry
Man who scratches ass should not bite fingernails
Man who eat many prunes get good run for money
Baseball is wrong, man with four balls cannot walk
Panties not best thing on earth but next to best thing on earth
War doesn't determine who is right, war determines who is lef
tWife who put husband in doghouse soon find him in cat house
Man who fight with wife all day get no piece at night
It take many nails to build crib but one screw to fill it
Man who drive like hell bound to get there
Man who stand on toilet is high on pot
Man who lives in glass house should change clothes in basement
Man who fishes in other man's well often catches crabs
Man who farts in church sits in own pew
Crowded elevator smells different to midget





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10:49 PM



Happy Chinese New year!!!

My parents left for their vacation at about 11am this morning so i got the house all to myself untill friday. Well there is my maid too.. but she doesnt do anything anyway. So im here all along on chinese new year, kinda sux that im not with my family and all but they did ask me along and i declined them...

Been napping / watching tv / vcds all day (thx ssam!). Good thing about my parents not being around is that i dont have to go visiting. But the bad side is that i dont get my ang baos just yet. I only get them the next time i visit them, i visit them once a month anyway. Oh and i also dont usually get anything from my extended family other than my grandparents so i dont miss out much too.

Im snacking on some bah kua now, just finished half a box of "love letters", i think im about to fall ill already. Hope everyone enjoys their CNY.. gong xi fa cai!

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9:03 PM



Ahhhhh im sooo tired!!! Yesterday was such an eventful day and i only fell asleep at abt 2 am this morning. And now, i have to get started with my studying for the tests next week already. Im guessing that im going to have to study all day to have a shot at even passing the tests.

Yesterday morning was the old folks home visit. I have to admit that i found it rather discouraging and less of a pleasurable experience when compared to working with kids during the "Handicraft Day" last December. Some of the old folks were so stuck up and even said "Wheres my Hong Bao? If dont have then dont touch me, get lost!" Id rather be working with kids. But once again, there were some really nice old folks there which made the whole experience that much more bearable. The dance item that we put in so much effort to prepare didnt exactly go well, but the old folks there probably didnt care anyway. I think they were too busy eating their oranges.

The afternoon was great too, not something that i would forget anytime soon, thanks for making it so fun! You are forgiven for coming late, but not for forgetting the discs! Your "one up" better not disappoint me, or else...Anyway im publicly accepting your public apology haha

At night was the senior junior interaction party. Oh my gawd, that guys house... now we all know who to kidnap when we dont have enough money to pay for sports complex fees. Was a little disappointed with the small turn up of JC2s but it was fun nonetheless. By the time i got there, i was already tired as hell, so i just stoned around (as usual)

Time to stop procrastinating and start studying!

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12:09 PM



So, i got a biology test tomorrow and yet im blogging instead. I guess ive almost given up on it already, stupid photosynthesis and respiration... so damn confusing. I hope everyone else out there is doing better than me (actually i hope they all struggle and fail tomorrow too so i wont be the only one)

Next week is going to be hell, 3 tests, chem maths econs sigh.... and tomorrow got interact again to rehearse the dance that we'll be performing on Saturday for the visit to an old folk's home.

Today our teacher made us write a letter to ourselves that she will collect and return to us upon the return of our A level results in approximately a years time. It was a rather interesting proposition, i didnt quite know what to write, but it has been on my mind since the start of the day. I hope i dont look back with regret, wishing that i put in more effort... i keep telling myself that this is THE year that determines what i do at uni so i ought to work much harder, but im amazed at how good i am at procrastinating.

~I hope things go as planned... i dont want to be disappointed again, wishing upon a star~

i better get back to my bio

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8:14 PM



Changed my blog skin again... didnt quite like my old one and i realised that there was something wrong about it.

Had a very tiring week, reached home past 8.30 almost everyday the past week.. i think its beginning to take a toll on me, feeling a little ill. Maybe i brought it upon myself, i indulged in a bag or potato chips while watching the 2hr special of prison break.


It happened about 14 months ago, its happening again. I thought that if something like this happened again i could handle it better but i cant. "What doesnt kill us only makes us stronger" i cant remember the exact quote but i certainly do hope that this is true. I hope things work out better this time.


What you think of the new skin? leave a comment =P

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9:38 PM

Friend asked me to go see this video, and i found it really hilarious!! Dont know if its an old or new video but anyway im guessing that there has to be some people who hasnt seen it.

lazy to blog... braindead... miss 3 days of school...homework...NoOoooOOOOo!

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8:20 AM



phew, what a busy week! had to mug soooo hard for econs test only to find out that its not going to be counted. anyway i guess its good news since i did not manage to properly study for it. Then had soooo many interact thingies throughout the week which saw me reaching home past 8.30 for 3 days!

week 2 of JC2 life has just ended and quite a number of things have changed. teachers now seem more serious and determined to make us do our homework! i just realised that for the entire of last year, i have only done GP/chinese/econs homework and that i never ever did my math/chem/biology homework! i basically just copied those to show some face haha! however i did eventually study them for my exams which i didnt do tooooo badly in so i guess its ok. obviously i hope to do better thus im actually trying to do my homework this year!! too bad i already gave up on maths.. stuck on the 1st question haha!

i wanna change blog skin soon... i hate dis one!

watching my name is earl! i luv sitcoms

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9:45 PM



school has reopened already. the workload is almost back in full swing too, have to finish heaps of stuff before econs test on thursday. theres also holiday homework that i have to do... as well as to revise last years work. the amount of work piled up ahead of me is soooo daunting i prefer not to think about it, change topic!

ive added music to my blog but i dont know if its working properly.

Hey there Delilah, what's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away but girl, tonight you look so pretty, yes you do
Time Square can't shine as bright as you, I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah, don't you worry about the distance,
I'm right there if you get lonely, give this song another listen
Close your eyes, listen to my voice, it's my disguise, I'm by your side

Ohh, it's what you do to me, ohh, it's what you do to me
Ohh, it's what you do to me, ohh, it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah, I know times are getting hard but just believe me girl someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar, we'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah, I've got so much left to say, if every simple song I wrote to you would take your breath away, I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall, we'd have it all

Ohh, it's what you do to me, ohh, it's what you do to me
Ohh, it's what you do to me, ohh, it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far but they've got planes and trains and cars, I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us, and we'll just laugh along because we know that none of them have felt this way
Delilah, I can promise you that by the time that we get through, the world will never ever be the same, and you're to blame

Hey there Delilah, you be good and don't you miss me. Two more years and you'll be done with school and I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you, we can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah, here's to you, this one's for you

Ohh, it's what you do to me, ohh, it's what you do to me
Ohh, it's what you do to me, ohh, it's what you do to me
What you do to me
Ohhh..

Hey There Delilah~Plain White T's

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9:43 PM



happy new year!

has everyone made their new year resolutions? i made the exact same resolutions i made last year, except im a teeny bit more determined to adhere to them this year.

ive been reading a book for the past 3 days, came across something interesting. ive never realised that siblings are probably the only people in the world whom u will get to know from young till the time either of you pass on. this is like quite an obvious fact, but i just kinda "realised" it only after reading it. im an only child, at times i feel crappy and lonely and i think that having a sibling might help. the grass is always greener on the other side right?

then again, i realise that id have to share everything with my siblings if i ever had any.. suddenly it doesnt suond like such a good idea anymore. im not selfish, there are some things i just wont want to share =P

this whole siblings thing seems like such a random thought especially in this season of celebration. if there is somethign that would really make me celebrate, it'd be strapping a few particular people to some fireworks, shooting them into the sky and seeing them go boom. i am so sadistic, oh yea!

cant sleep, dont know why... going to try sleeping now

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1:34 AM



Merry xmas! Xmas is NOT over!!! As u can see, im in denial =P. Thanks for all the well wishes and gifts!

Xmas wasnt too great actually, my dad returned home from Australia the previous night and i wanted to go out, but it didnt feel right abandoning my family. So i ended up spending time with my family, didnt really do much the entire day, nothing much on TV either. Grr... Channel 5 showing re-runs of movies that should be in the museums! I wonder how they manage to win those awards with such crappy programmes.

School is starting in a week =( NoOOOoooOooO i shudder at the thought of school. JC2, i cant believe it, A level year... I havent done anything academic at all this entire holiday, i havnt started only holiday assignments and i dont intend to untill school starts. Xmas is SOOOOo not the time to start on homework, the atmosphere just isnt condusive for work =P. Me and my excuses haha. Time to start preparing New Years resolutions!! hope that for once i can adhere to them hehe

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12:12 AM



YAY! I have finally managed to fix my com! Thanks to everyone who has "attempted to help" me fix it, hehe. My uncle was the one who managed to fix it for me, hes a computer tech, so phew!

Incase u havnt already noticed, ive gotten rid of my old blogskin. Fixed my com, was too excited to sleep, while downloading all the programs back onto my computer i decided to change my blog skin to kill some time and here it is. Im not super obsessed with the click five or anything but couldnt find any other nice skins so i settled for this.

My week long job attachment finally ended last friday. I cant exactly call it an enjoyable experience since i was glad that it has finally ended, and yet i cant say that i hate it too. I dont feel that i have learnt much from the attachment because the tasks that i was assigned to do was rather simple and brainless, i guess its cuz the staff there were too busy with their own work to teach me more complex stuff and it wouldnt be worth their time since i would only be there for 1 week.

X-mas is next week! Going shopping for presents in the next couple of days, need to see how much spare change i have to see who much presents i can buy =P Someone suggested that i save myself the trouble and just buy myself a big present haha. Anyway, to my classmates, im planning to get u all something when school opens! (IF i have enough money remaining)

On Saturday there was this pre-christmas celebration @ bukit batok CC. I was there together with several interactors and we set up a couple of game stalls there! It was quite fun although i got to see the kiasu side of Singaporeans. The games were free of charge (in the xmas spirit of giving i guess?) and we had prizes too, so its basically like free gifts. There were some black sheep who kept Qing over and over again just to get our free gifts and i was quite disgusted at that. However, it was generally a very fun experience and i hope to get the opportunity to be a part of something like this again in the future!

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10:11 PM



Yesterday was the first day of my week long job attachment. It wasnt exactly something that i was looking forward to since it is after-all a JOB attachment. Well, nothing much could be said about it apart from "boring". After being given a few initial tasks that took me less than 30 minutes to complete, i was left to do nothing for the next 30 mins. I went around asking if there was anything that i could assist with and only then did i receive a couple of tasks that were simple and mindless! Most of the tasks i did involved filing in one way or another, ranging from photocopying/printing documents or updating their computer database which all led to more filing!

This morning, the "Handicraft Day" that i have been planning for the past couple of months was FINALLY held. That is a huge load off my shoulders, quite literally too.. (had to bring heaps of stuff for this, had a really heavy bag!) This event was planned mainly to "provide entertainment" for the kids at a particular youth centre, we hoped to entertain them by teaching various handicrafts such as balloon sculpture and folding of various origami. I have to say that it was a rather bizzare experience. My parents have been telling me throughout my life how much of a trouble maker i was when i was young and i cannot truly say i understand how they felt even untill today. Some of the kids there were so hard to get along with, talk about spoilt brats. And yes, ive had my share of experiences with spoilt brats... been in the AC family since 6 duh (kinda a brat myself? =P) But on the whole, it was an enjoyable experience. Of course, the rest of the kids were very friendly and served as a huge encouragemet for me! i never really liked small kids, i always believed that they are naive little creatures who have yet to experience the murderous nature of humanity. Always asking silly questions, being stubborn and annoying, comparable to pests! THAT is what i USED to think about them. Now my opinion of kids turned 180 degrees! Come to think of it.. maybe i shud try to get to know my neighbours little brother better instead of shrugging him off as a pest =p (im no paedophile!!!)

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9:32 PM



4 words : my com go boom!

Not really boom... but its spoilt. All this started because of Blizzard, World of Warcraft had a patch for new content, when it tried installing it, my computer just suddenly crashed. So now i have to reformat it, but the problem is that i dont have the CD required. All my data in my com also lost... from games to photos to notes. Yes, i do my notes for school on my computer.... Luckily i still have my songs on my ipod yay!

I also got a work attachment next week with some engineering firm. I dont quite have a clue what im going to be doing there but its apparently a desk job. Dress code for such jobs for guys is generally shirt + long pants right?? Im so dead... i highly doubt the shirts i own are suitable, whereas my dads clothes that he didnt bring along with him to Australia are all so "uncle"!! The only long pants i have are school pants... do jeans count? I believe that im going to have to spend my "pay" on clothes before i even start working.

Oh and if you are wondering how im posting this since my com went boom, im using a laptop. Secretly using my neighbours wireless internet... muahhahahaha (hope i dont get arrested -.-")

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8:00 PM



Checking my horoscope used to be part of my daily routine, however it no longer is. Now, it isnt mainly cuz the predictions fail to come true. I never quite believed in such stuff... i dont like the idea of my destiny or fate being controlled by something unknown. However the accuracy of my past horoscopes baffled me.. and i was forced to believe in them to a certain extent.

I believe in god, a god who wants to improve things in a large picture. This means that this improvement might come at a price, and i might not be the one who experiences this improvement. In fact, nobody i know or care for might experience it. Call me selfish, but i dont really care unless the improvement doesnt come to someone i care abt. So i dont really like to "leave it in the hands of god" because it doesnt guaruntee me a banefit. This is of course only my PERSONAL belief, no offence to anyone.

I am going to take things into my own hands... no longer will i stand by and hope that things take a turn for the better... This shall my my "pre New-Year resolution"!! I am going 2 get this issue resolved before 1st Jan!

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11:48 PM



Last friday was my bday, kinda sucked cuz i still had 2 work for my parents. They refused to let me off cuz the date was agreed upon weeks ago... Then on the following day i went for lunch with my grandparents to celebrate and then went on to meet up with a couple of my friends. On the whole it was rather fun i guess, especially the ang baos =P muahahaha. Thx to everyone who remembered my bday and shame on the rest of u who didnt, im not gonna talk to u all anymoer!!!! (just kidding!)

0.0 james bond on tv now, bb going 2 watch whats left of it =P

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8:23 PM



yawn.... been sleeping almost all day, feeling quite ill, started feeling ill after watching the last episode of goong. Probably withdrawal symptoms, looking forward to the second season already!

fell ill 2 days b4 my bday, this sucks! Actually, im not the sort of person who cares much about birthdays.. it just means that ur a year older, and with this comes greater responsibility and burden so whats so great about it?!!? hmm... however it also means that its closer to the legal age to drink... and drive. But it also means 1 more year till NS... NOOoooooOOooo NS, how am i gonna survive??? spend 2 years of my life in de army sigh.. i hope i dispatched to something that involves driving after my BMT, what can i say, free driving lessons whilst in the army, hope to make the best out of my time spent in hell.

November is coming to and end soon, school is just another month away. The thought of it frightens me.. how am i supposed to improve so much b4 the A levels.. i dont want freaking Ds for GP... and math!?!? dont even get me started on math.. i still am not quite sure on how to do O level math.. differentiation / integration jeez!

i think i better not worry too much abt school lest it ruins my mood... only thing 2 look forward to is the $$ i will get during my bday lol, den i can go on a SPENDING SPREE!!! i know i know.. im $.$ (money face) but hey, who doesnt want money, if u dont feel free to give to me!

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9:55 PM



Ever had those times where the harder you try, the further u end up from your goal? Its like being in quicksand, the more you struggle the faster you sink. All you can do is hope that you can find something to hang on to, something that can pull you out of it. So i guess.. sometimes doing nothing is perhaps the best option, n just hope that someone is there to help u along the way. No use struggling cuz we might be unable to see the whole picture, and any action we take might worsen the situation. It might be wiser if we took a step back, and get a person to help us, with their 3rd person perspective, they might be able to be able to accurately analyse the situation and better come up with a way to solve the problem... to get you out of the quicksand.

sigh... pool so much lately but i still suck so badly @ it... i think im just not cut out for it huh? hahah anyway.. getting sick of pool soon... been playing so often. Play com also play untill getting bored already, my only source of joy now is gong!!! but SIGH... ending soon... NoOOoo....T.T i need to find new anime to watch already. im also getting sick of my playlist, dont dare to download anymore songs, so im stuck with the same old ones! i also dun hav a radio at home... dont know whr to hear new songs. i know i can listen to the radio online.. but it takes a huge bite out of my bandwidth, play game will b slow like turtle!

hope class chalet does happen! look forward 2 it. gnite going 2 sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!

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9:27 PM



Work work work... holidays are here and yet almost everybody is still working! I mean, REAL work.. not school work. Am I the only person not working? Want to go out also hard, all busy with work. Ive been really bored as of late, past couple of nights been camping at my neighbours house playing halo2 into the weeeee hours of the morning. Oh.. and im kinda part-time worker too! helping my dads company do delivery when theres not enough workers and the best part is... IM GETTING PAID! I know i know.. some of u might b wondering y am i accepting payment from my parents... well im short on $, they keep telling me if i want to work i might as well work for them instead of outside... so ya i persistently refused n they finally offered 2 pay me. Then again, its not exactly the kind of job i wuold enjoy.. most ppl would know me as the kind who doesnt like to sweat -.-" or even "delicate" and yet here i am.. tomorrow still need to help deliver a couple of cabinets, SIGH...

I promised myself that i would try to improve my physical fitness over the holidays. I have tried.. put in some serious effort, been running abt 4-5km every alternate day. Did weight training too... had slight improvements but kinda plateaued so im getting rather discouraged. Hav also been playing pool a lot recently, but im still really bad at it!!! guess ive kinda stopped improving @ EVERYTHING!

So... many things i want to buy.. but no money, at least im "working" now so yay im gonna get to buy some of the things i want!! SHOES are on the top on my list, my shoes are so worn and tattered, and its the only pair ive got! looking forward to class chalet if it does indeed materialise... going 2 watch tv now, bb

yet another rubbish mindless post of my random rants

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11:15 PM



i havnt been blogging much recently.. life has been quite a bore lately, mostly about PW. It finally ended yesterday. During our journey together we got to know each other better, became not just group mates but close friends. The past year slogging out PW with u guys have been great! Our impromptu PW outing was good too.. although my throat got a little sore after eating so much of that disgusting cheeze + chilli thingy... We certainly should continue to hang out even tho PW has ended for us. I look forward to hanging out with the entire group again, a heartfelt desire indeed. Many thanks to the 4 of u who have made the otherwise boring as hell subject called PW so much fun and enjoyable to the extent whr i wouldnt mind taking it as a H1 subject IF it was to be offered =P.

Hope to see u guys again soon~gnite

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12:00 AM



What a busy holiday!!! Past 3 days of holiday had 2 go back to school every single day for... guess what, PW!!!! Omg i hate PW so much, thank god its going 2 end this monday. At least my holiday isnt as packed as compared to other people who are much more heavily involved in their respective CCAs. I wonder if i can accomplish any meaningful things this vacation. Initially i planned on learning either the guitar or the drums.. a plan that i made last year to accomplish after my O's but it never quite happened.. i really dunno if i will go forward with it this time.

Im trying to revise for Chinese A's atm by re-reading the textbook.. trying to familarise myself with the passages since i mainly stone through chinese lessons.. i cant quite remember what most of the passages are about. So here i am... blogging after reading 1 chapter of chinese, i guess i still have tomorrow to worry about it since its the 1st day of the holidays where i actually dont have to return to school for PW! So, i can SLACK!

Im having trouble sleeping again.. i hate sharing my room.. gonna catch some shut eye.. gnite!
AND!! gd luck to all those taking chinese A's!!

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11:08 PM



HOLIDAYS have finally arrived!!! Actually its nothing much to be happy about.. still got PW and A'level Chinese. PW, as always is such a pain in the ass and Chinese?!? Im not even going to comment on chinese... just glad that i wont hav to bother about chinese any more after this coming friday!

I have been having trouble sleeping again the past few days since my dad went overseas. My mom is afraid to sleep alone.. thus sharing the room with me. I really cant sleep with her in my room.. couple of stuff have been on my mind lately too, together they have kept me from my sleep. Over thursday and friday, i slept for a total of 5 hours.. looked like a panda. Thankfully i managed to sleep well last night.. however had a really weird dream. I dreamt that i was stuck underneath a building that collapsed... amidst the rubble was a door that led to some high security place with people dressed like agent smith from the matrix... Black jacket sunglasses n everything! Anyway i woke up when i got discovered by one of those "agents".

What happens when u misjudge a person? Someone u thought u understood does something that you would never imagine them doing. Can i no longer trust my sense of judgement? Have i misjudged any other people... am i even the person i think i am? Some stupid issue has caused me to become rather moody..

I finally got my haircut earlier today.. i dont like it.. i find it too short.. T.T

)x~
8:16 PM



What can i say other than "I HATE PW!!", actually that was more of a scream. Spent almost the entire past week doing WR/OP... Anyway, tomorrow is hari raya so holiday but i still have to worry about PW again! This time its I&R that i have to worry about.. thank god its only 500 words, shudnt take too long to do.

The sun only shines when you whisper into my ear,
because you are the only thing i will ever call dear.
You hold the key to open my door,
but you only come to me when your life is a bore.
Driving around town aimlessly,
listening to the roads' symphony.
I am always by your side whenever you need me,
but im only beside you when you're not too glee

You take me for granted,
but to me you are still always wanted.
I'd travel miles for you,
but for my feelings you dont have a clue.
Step on my pedels,hear my engines roar,
My language is your music,Our words just dont click,
I wish i could make you understand,
but i really dont have a plan...

Two years down the road,
when im no longer the latest fad.
Will you still hold my key,
or give it away for a fee.
Trade me away if you may,
but it certainly will break your day.
Because im your red sports car,
the only one who would call you "Tsar".

Red Sports Car~)x~

Ok.. im feeling bored and a little emo so i gave writing poems a shot. I havnt done any "creative writing" in a long time so i hope this poem aint too bad! I had the intention of writing it such that it is open to multiple interpretations.. but somehow some of what i wanted to say got lost somewhere...Once again let me mention that i am not obliged to make sense! Try sueing me for bad poetry, u wont win =)

)x~
10:02 PM



Just got back my promo results today, wouldnt say it was too bad... neither was it good. I passed everything... BDDDE.. but combined with terms etc i think i will fail math. My parents are going to kill me for sure if i fail math.. might as well do it myself n commit suicide 1st, kidding! But im not kidding abt the part whr my parents will kill me.

Finished my OP practise session today too.. apparently i can change into more colours den a chameleon according to the teacher... change colours not in the sense of character or personality (phew) but in a more literal sense... she said that my lips and face tend to change colour very easily.

The past couple of days, ive been busy with my OP, effectively keeping my mind off my results. It kept my mind busy, however after OP presentation today morning, i had several more hours of "free time" for me to worry about my results so i ended up quite @.@ kuku just now.

I dont really have much to worry about for the rest of the year apart from my chinese A levels but i should be able to pass it without much problem. However, i still feel quite weird, like something is missing, im not feeling any sense of accomplishment at all. I know i shudnt feel like that, thrs many people who would kill to have my results. Im actually rather pleased with it but i still dont feel right. Maybe its not about my promo results or even PW, i just cant seem to place a finger on it!

Im feeling down n depressed, n i dunno whats the reason. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

)x~
9:00 PM



Its been a week since promos has ended... that means a week of worry... been trying to keep my mind of results with computer games and now im hooked again hmm... sigh...bleh. The past week of school was really slack, so went out a couple of times, caught a couple of movies.

Yesterday a friend of mine asked me this question "If u could make 1 wish to change anything in your life, what wish would that be?" Theres many things in my life i'd want to change, so i expected this to be easy to answer but it definitely isnt...

What if i made myself an instant billionaire? I'd be surrounded by other rich stuckup a$$****s and i probably wouldnt get to know the friends i have now...Ok, so money wont cut it... so what abt things that money cant buy? How about love? A wonderful wife whom i'd make a great couple with... nah.. im only 17! i dont want to get married! And what about the process of finding true love, i dont want to miss that out too!

What else can money not buy? SUPERPOWERS! Isnt it every kids dream to have superhuman powers? What if i wished 2 be superman... nah.. he has 2 deal with superevil freaks and he still has 2 work! And with powers im obliged to "save teh world" cuz my conscience wouldnt let me off if i didnt. I'd rather not put myself in such perilous positions.

After much thought about this subject (about 2 mins) i finally thought of something that i could wish for, good health. There is no point in having everything in the world... but having to lay on a bed all day, being frail n sickly...

*insomnia~)x~

)x~
8:15 AM



PROMOS IS FINALLY OVER! Actually it ended on friday.. intended to go starlight after last paper but was really tired.. so decided to go back after dinner at carl's junior. I absolutely luv carl's junior except for the portion size! I have yet to finish 1 whole burger... quite a waste of money haha.

With the exams out of the way i finally have some time to completely relax.. hav some time to just sleep in. I started playing computer games, World of Warcraft in particular... just to kill time so i do go crazy due to excessive boredom. It has been working rather well, havnt had any emo fits yet but im keeping my fingers crossed.. i hope i dont get SOOooOOOoo addicted to it like last time.

Facades... a superficial appearance or illusion of something. Is there a sure fire way to see through a persons facade? Everyone puts on a mask and plays this game of life... some masks more ornate than others but still masks nonetheless. But whats the reason behind these masks... hiding our insecurities or just wanting to fit in? Wouldnt it be so much easier if nobody wore masks.. if you could instantly recognise someone for who they really are? Argh.. some people are just so hard to decipher.. I want X-ray vision.. not to look under girls clothes but to see through a persons mask!

)x~
11:00 PM



A short "break" in between the exams.. I dont have any papers today so i get to stay home to "rest". The inverted commas are there cuz it isnt resting at all! Have to spend the entire day revising.. HOW IS THAT RESTING?!!? The last time i have felt this tired was after Round Island Kayaking Expedition(RIKE) during NCC times!! At this moment... im running on coffee... ive dozed off at my table while studying about 3 times already... and yet i still got a long way to go.

Argh!! Why is there Chem SPA tomorrow??? Why did they put in between our exams when they can simply put it next week? If its a SPA that doesnt require us to study for it at all then it isnt that bad.. but skill C/D? NoOOoooOOOOooo.....

Currently im taking a short break.. trying to complete my bio revision by 6pm.. left with cell division n diversity/evolution...

Normally, i'd try avoid blogging abt what happened during my day cuz such posts are usually so boring and meaningless... but lately with all the exam stress and all.. seems like i cant really be bothered to blog about any other things apart from complaining how badly my day sucked! At least promos is coming to a close soon... but then i'll have to start worrying about my results.. and probably start studying for supplementary exams... *sigh* I know i know.. i ought 2 be more optimistic but i cant!! I have already lost 40 marks for my maths test.. and i cant seem to understand my chemistry notes!! So i do have the right to panic!!

Good luck to everyone whos still taking their exams!

)x~
3:52 PM



Promos has started yesterday... kicking off with GP and econs. I guess it wasnt too bad.. i felt that both papers were not too difficult. However i am very bad at predicting my results, i always do badly for papers i thought were easy and do well in those i thought was hard. Then again im not aiming for much this time... Im just hoping to get the minimum 2H2 1H1... Maths n chem seem so impossible from where im standing... maybe i hav to aim for 1H1 2H2s instead..

Im stressing out... n some chain of events led me to turn a little emo yesterday night + today...was laying on my bed staring at the ceilings. I was on the verge of crying... but the tears just couldnt flow.. everything just kept piling up and i really couldnt take it anymore i just needed some time to sort things out. I took an early night.. hoping that a good night of rest would do the cham and i guess it did. Im feeling a whole lot better now.. but maths is still a killer... I cant seem to do any single mathematical induction question! Im going to head back to continue with my maths now, need to finish another 3 more tutorials by the end of today. I really dont know how im going to cope... im so far behind for my revisions.. I barely started biology.. only 1 chapter completed.

I know promos has just started.. but i already can see the light at the end of the tunnel... ive decided that im gonna start gaming again once the exams end. Since ive quit gaming ive had quite a number of emo-drama.. i guess i really need to keep my wacky head busy with games when i hav nothing much to do after the exams. The pain felt in the virtual world is nothing like that felt in reality.. so i think its safer if i stick to computer games =)

I hope everyone else is having a better time than me... I have never ever felt this unprepared for an examination... im really stressing out!

)x~
3:54 PM



Argh!! Jonathan leong didnt win sg idol.. was supporting him =(. Anyway... i planned to finish studying my chemistry by yesterday...Then i suddenly realised that chem was the last paper of the exams and that maths was the 2nd! I have only finished 1 out of 16 tutorials for my maths so im like so dead! So i hav really no idea why im writing this instead of studying maths right now... or why i was even watching SGidol when i shud have been studying maths!

Today was rather unusual in the sense that i took the train home instead of taking the bus which i usually do. Coincidentally i met an old friend of mine from ACS(I) whom i havnt spoke to in ages. I dunno if u visit my blog here but if u do, *HELLO BAWANG*. Anyway... i think im gonna b sticking to bus.. i thought that it'd b faster to go home by train but apparently its only faster by abt 5 mins after taking the time it takes to walk to the train station from sch! Its also more comfortable to sleep on the bus since its less noisy n my sleep wont get disrupted since the ride is almost an hr long.

Studying drains the life out of me... studied for 45 mins and now im so tired already. kk.. going 2 sleep... GNITE!

)x~
9:34 PM



going to school everyday,
i really dont know what to say.
lectures are so hard to understand,
i never understood what the lecturer meant.

even in tutorial classes,
sitting there looking through my glasses,
as the teacher goes through the worksheets,
all i can say to myself is,
shit. i have no idea what she said,
cuz i feel like i just got out of bed.
blindly copying everything on the board,
maybe thats why i feel so bored.

all i can look forward to is recess,
im sure everyone agrees that its the best.
but not around exam periods,
cuz everyone seems so serious,
studying twenty four-seven.
even if studying meant going to heaven,
i dont think i can change.

u might think im in a closet,
but this computer cant fit in it.
so, unless u are so stupid,
no! im not in a closet.
im sitting here infront of my table,
writing this instead of trying to make the grade.

with all this said,
i think i shud go to bed.
im just procrastinating,
cuz i really hate studying.

~)x~

)x~
8:39 PM



Today i was supposed to go to my relatives house for some function.. dunno whos baby 1 mth old. I really didnt feel like going.. my parents tried to persuade me to go saying that i havnt met those particular relatives since i was like 4 or 5. But its not as if im some kind of freak show, im just a normal human with a pair of eyes n ears, a nose n a mouth, i look just like a normal human being!! So what if they dont see me? They havnt seen me in 11-12 years and i highly doubt that they missed me at all so why shud i go?! Anyway i conveniently came down with a cold.. so i managed wo weasel my way out of it.

I was determined to seriously start mugging today but i ended up putting off my work once again. I took about 4 hrs worth of naps.. i read my notes for abt 40 mins... thats how tiring studying is!

Is it just me or does time seem to fly by really quickly? it only felt like terms was last week.. and yet now we find our promos just looming slightly ahead. This really sux.. we had our terms later compared to sec school and we are having promos earlier!! Ahh i hate this... i really aint in the mood 2 study..

Oh yea.. my parents are at it again.. last night my parents had a fight over a roll of double sided tape which my dad apparently forgot to bring home. So he drove all the way back to his office to pick it up cuz it was "good double sided tape" and the ones sold elsewhere are not as good. So while my dad was out my mom was complaining to me abt my dad... i really dun understand how sometimes i feel that im the mature one in de house and yet im so kuku as well...

Im just having a rough 2 days.. i havnt had much appetite, falling ill... n my stupid aircon broke down. Cannot sleep properly at night! Bah i guess i shud go 2 bed now since im a little sick... gnite.

)x~
10:27 PM



Time is ticking away second by second.. whether or not i spend it wisely, time doesnt wait for me. I really feel as if ive wasted away the past week of my life... didnt do much interesting things perhaps apart from that ice skating trip.

With so much time on my hands, i began to do weird stuff... like laying in bed staring at the ceilings... walking aimlessly around my housing estate.. To sum things up, i did everything apart from studying. I know i should really start studying but i really havnt got the mood for that. Ive promised myself that i would start studying the very day school reopens but im quite sure that it is going to be a promise to myself that i wont be able to keep.

I spent a large part of my holiday re-watching movies... re-playing games...and while doing those, i recalled some memorable things. I thought of the ppl i watched those movies with.. the ppl i played those games with. Most of these people whom ive already lost contact with. I guess i have to blame myself for that, i havnt exactly been trying hard enough to remain in contact with them. So, its been kind of depressing... even listening to songs havnt been able to cheer me up. It reminded me of the people who introduced the songs to me... some of whom i havnt spoken to in years.

Well.. its either the "boringness" of the holidays or the fact that ive been listening to "Memory - Sugarcult" too many times... (cuz its one of my fav songs) that has got me into this "remembering mood".

This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

Memory~Sugarcult

Quite dissappointingly, i havnt managed to catch as many movies this week as i hoped to catch. So.. if anyone still got a movie that they missed and wanna catch it, u know who to look for =P Oh well... Enjoy the final few moments of this term break everyone.. study hard for the promos!

)x~
5:35 PM



Half of the term vacation has passed and yet i still feel as if i have not accomplished anything at all this holiday. To top things off, i think im addicted to gaming once again... my boredom drove me to it... after all, contrary to popular belief, I HAVENT BEEN MUGGING! Quite dissappointed actually... didnt go out half as much as i would have liked to.

Oh ya, today is Wilsons bday! HAPPY BDAY WILSON! Look so funny in that mickymouse-santa hat lol. Had to go back to school today for GP timed essay assignment... i think im gonna fail..all my paragraphs are soooo short! Then i had to head down to MCYC for interact... quite fun actually. Helped to brighten up my otherwise dull and boring day.

As i was travelling to school earlier today on bus 74, my sec school teacher boarded the bus. I dont think he recognised me... i didnt say hi to him either, although i really wanted to. But i was afraid that he might not recognise me... ok ok.. i probably wasnt the "recognisable" sort of student... very quiet and "guai"...ok fine.. "guai" around teachers. He was a teacher that i really respected, my sec 4 bio teacher.. Mr See. My sec 4 class was rather rowdy... and the class was always in a huge mess. However before his lesson, we would always take the effort to clean the class up.. button up our collars (something he was extremely particular about). He was very strict.. and yet he knew how to joke around. Anyway, to sum it up, hes the best teacher in my eyes.

Anyway here i am now, trying to find some ppl to go out tmr.. i dont want 2 b bored 2 death!! Wish me luck!

)x~
8:08 PM



I had the scariest of dreams last night! It began something like this... I was being chased around by armed men... dodging bullets and running around corners den all of the sudden i get hit in the head. The armed men blindfolded me.. bound my arms and legs, den carried me into the trunk of their car. Several moments later I was freed... they removed my blindfold and i found myself on the highest level of a multi story carpark. I was surrounded by about 5-6 men... den one of them, whom I suppose is the leader started speaking to me in some weird language...he den pointed a revolver to my head and BANG! i was so shocked that i fell off my bed... now I got a bump on my head.

The term break has finally arrived... and yet somehow its rather bitter sweet. i dont intend to study much during this break.. so i have quite a lot of time on my hands since ive quit gaming as well...Hence, i spent much of my day lazing around. However, i have managed to adhere to a promise that i made to myself during the past couple of days, to train for my 2.4km every day! I guess with the extra time on my hands, i really cant find any excuses for myself . Anyway.. if anyone wants to go have some fun, dont forget to ask me along!!! im getting bored to my death.. i never thought that i'd dread holidays so much

Oh yea, yesterday was the Teachers' Day celebrations. I felt rather guilty for not having any gifts... In my sec school.. most ppl dont give gifts to teachers even during teachers day, so i didnt really think much about it at first. I eventually realised that the majority of my class had gifts for the teachers... and yea, after school we were standing outside the staff room where people were anxiously trying to find their teachers to pass them their gifts. Most of them had heaps of gifts in their hands. i stood amongst these people, and it suddenly hit me. The guilt hit me...maybe thats y i had the nightmare... the bullet representing the guilt..

)x~
9:53 PM



Yesterday was quite a fun day! Rather unexpected stuff happened... 1st was PW. omg.. PW lecture was actually interesting... infact it was probably the most interesting lesson of the day! The lecturer was so entertaining lol, never thought that learning how to do an OP would b so interesting haha. most of the time, i'd b struggling to keep my eyes open during PW lecture... or i'd b doing homework for other subjects, but this particular lecture was soooo amusing and funny.

Then came the impromptu outing. 1st we went to borders.. walked ard for a bit untill movie was abt to start. we went to watch "click". quite a weird show... was kinda wondering how it'd end... but even after the show ended i still dun understand the ending.. was it a dream or not??? Im confused -.-" My fav part was when adam sandler was dieing and he was pointing his middle finger at the speedo dude rofl. it was soooo hilarious.. the situation was so sad n gloomy and serious and suddenly middle finger wahhaha funny.

Den after the movie went 2 hav dinner den went 2 walk ard. quite fun, the company was great! thx everyone! BUT, im sad cuz i forgot to ask my mom to help me record smallville =(... oh well, the outing was definitely more enjoyable compared to smallville.

Now im having a dilemma of whether i shud watch TV or sleep... i wanna watch tv cuz the show now seems quite interesting.. but at the same time im falling asleep, so ive decided to blog during the advertisements in an attempt to stay awake and apparently it isnt working too well. Im still falling asleep... hmm.. i guess i better go to sleep instead.. gnite

)x~
10:10 PM



omg.. wasnt yesterdays chem test just super hard??? anyway.. i didnt study much for it the, was busy with PW and slacking..( YES! i can actually be busy slacking!) but then again, now i dont have to blame myself if i dont do well in it cuz i probably have found it super hard whether or not i studied for it lol. ok ok.. i admit, im creating excuses for myself =P

today so funny lol. after bio lecture our class teacher made us stay back in the lecture theatre. den we were all quite worried abt what that was for.... getting paranoid n stuff. but guess what? something really unexpected! she wanted us to pretend to sleep so she could take photos of us. for what reason? im guessing something related to teachers day. ok.. so the situation was really funny.. so i couldnt stop laughing... even when i was "sleeping" so i had a smile on my face while i was sleeping.... that i shall leave to ur own wild imagination but the truth is I WAS TRYING TO SURPRESS A LAUGH!

blehz.. im going 2 watch lost..gnite.

)x~
9:41 PM



i finally got my new phone today!! nokia 6280. im luving it!! slider phones are soooo kool. today is my moms birthday so she was in a good mood today. instead of me buying her a gift, she loaned me money to pay for my phone! she goes by the chinese calendar, and this year thrs like 2 julys, so she has 2 birthdays... anyway.. i guess i better start saving up for something to give her on her "2nd" birthday!

oh well.. i got a scolding again.. i "upgraded" contract b4 21 months which meant that i had to pay an additional $100 to whatever price was listed on the leaflet. and im just 4 months away from the "21st" month and i simply refused to wait another 4 months for my new phone so.. ya.. its my money and i get to spend it in whatever way i want, quoting my parents "u can flush it down the toilet bowl for all i care" and yet they nagging at how im impatient and wasting $100 when i could simply wait for another 4 mths!

well.. overall my day was quite enjoyable! went out to buy lunch today den i met an old friend, chatted for quite a bit. and my face isnt as screwed up now!! its still red, but at least its smooth!! according to the doctor i hav suboerric dermatitis or something like that.. i cant spell.. and its suposedly gonna clear up soon!! and of course, the icing on my cake was my new phone, i luv it so much. although the stupid guy at singtel told me that he copied all the contacts to my new card, he didnt!!! luckily i backed up my contact list.. phew

on the flip side of the coin.. i think ive got a fever.. started feeling feverish abt 20 mins after i got home...i better go rest.. gdnight!

)x~
10:06 PM



ive been so stressed out recently.. usually i cant be bothered about school work. but the past week, i was rather serious in my work because of the maths test that we had yesterday. ive been failing all my previous maths tests and exams and this test had a huge weightage so i actually studied considerably hard for the test. i dont know how well i faired just yet.. that stupid MI question.. no summation sign i completely panicked and dunno where to start.

well, my face has gotten super duper red since tuesday.. adding to the stress.. and stress worsens it so im stuck in this vicious cycle of stress! im hoping this get better for me over the next few days.. no more tests to worry about and i can relax. so... anyone wanna do anything this weekend? =P. didnt do anything much today since i got home, spent my time checking my mail.. reading fanfic, watching TV and listening to music. kind of killing time now.. waiting for "lost" to start.

quite a couple of weeks ago, my GP class came across an essay qn abt "modern man looking for happiness in all the wrong places", it has got me thinking quite a bit. my view on this question is that ppl nowadays are aiming for something they dont quite understand. the journey to happiness is filled with trials, but is what we finally attain after clearing all these tests really happiness? aren't theses "happiness" often images given to us by the media or by our society? do we truely know whether or not we will be happy after reaching our target. like now.. as students, we are constantly trying to attain good results. good results -> good job -> good pay -> good life? but what exactly defines a good life? my definition of a good life is a life where i wont look back and regret my actions or decisions.

sometimes, the "happiness" that we are trying to achieve are so hard to reach that we have to climb great heights to even get close to reaching them. but what happens when we fail to reach these "happiness"? we fall. and due to the height we have climbed.. the fall hurts, real bad. well... something like that happened to me recently, now im stuck here reminiscing about the past, thinking how i could have done things differently... not as if its going to change the past but at least i can reflect upon it.. try to learn from it.

anyway.. all this reminiscing is making me depressed... im going 2 listen to some "cheerful" music to brighten up my mood. gnite

)x~
8:28 PM



I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Time Machine~The Click Five

the national day vacation is not exactly what i wanted in a holiday, it actually caused me more problems and frustrations. on top of that.. i didnt manage to get my new hp cuz i was $50 short and my %^%&$% parents refused to lend me =(. i want to buy a nokia 6280 =P

my time machine is probably sleep. so i spent the majority of my day sleeping. thats y im still here now... cant sleep anymore.. took more than 7 hours of nap and now my eyes are wide open.. sleep is soooo good. one of the few moments whr i can completely not worry abt reality. only in my dreams can i do anything, without any repercussions on reality. only a couple of hours ago, i dreamt that i was driving a car.. and somehow i ran over somebody.. its all hazy and i dont remember much but yea.. no repercussions, im not in jail =). dreams are kinda like computer games huh, take a nightmare for example, if u dont like it, u wake up. in a computer game, u hate it, u log out or quit. i guess i just need to escape reality huh? ive quit gaming but ive picked up sleeping haha

i was reading the papers juz now and i came across an article of students getting suspended from school because they did not hav the required haircut... i was like "@.@". whats the big deal abt haircut? y do guys hav to cut that stupid slope etc etc and all the restriction??? y dont poly / ITE students hav such rules, i mean.. we already wear a uniform, must we all have similar hair too? i so hate having to hide whenever the barber comes to school or.. dodge discipline teachers. during sec school, i had this friend who had long hair, he got threatened to b sent for councilling if he didnt cut his hair.. i thought it was a joke.. but now that i see on the papers that a couple of students got suspended for the same offense.

)x~
11:05 PM



national day was yesterday, and in the name of national day, students get 1 extra day off. im not complaining but im bored out of my mind! i guess my parents are bored too cuz they seem to enjoy picking a fight whenever they have nothing to do. guess what this latest fight is about? food! apparently i complain about home cooked food too much. but hey, dont blame me.. my parents like the most disgusting food ever. my mom luvs eating "chee cheong fan" without any gravy or anything.. JUST PLAIN!! another of her favourite food is noodles... i mean.. plain noodles.. cooked using plain water.. no flavouring or anything.. so yea.. im not to blame for being too "picky" cuz my home cooked food REALLY sux so badly to the extent that when i was younger, when i enjoyed having friends over to my house, nobody dared to stay for dinner. fear factor anyone? ok ok.. its not as bad as fear factor but u get my point!

i spent most my of national day lazing around, which has become one of my favourite pass times recently. i gave up on the opportunity to go to the national day parade and i dont think i regret it. after seeing the parade on TV for 5 mins, i turned the TV off and started watching anime / reading fan fic. den all of the sudden i had the urge to start doing homework, den maths came to mind, "oh shit maths test!". so i opened up my maths TYS and started wondering to myself "hmm.. lemme think which chapters are tested again? oh crap i cant remember." while i was busy trying to remember the chapters.. SUDDENLY, "ding dong ding dong" msn alert den started talking talking talking... den forgot about maths. and den my parents start nagging at me.. ask me to stop doing nothing and start doing something...

my parents are completely opposite to most ppls parents.. for example, they scolded me when i said i wanted to go for tuition! i mean wtf?!?! i thought most ppl's parents would b thankful if their child wanted to go for tuition! whenn i told them i got 14.5/20 for my chem test they say "only 14.5??? your mother used to get full marks so often u know? u get this kind of results also so happy??" WTF?!?! primary school get full marks is dam easy but im in JC!!! independence is an issue too.. they dont encourage independence.. they didnt allow me to go the my sec schools overseas education programmes which abt 99% of the school attended.. but yea the irony is that they practically forced me into ACS (independent). some ppl would envy me for what im going to say next, my parents said that they wouldnt mind IF i had a gf. WTF!??! even with regards to how much i sleep.. my parents are weird too... ive always had the impression that some parents hate it when their kids sleep all day. but my parents are constantly trying to make me sleep..they say "u know why u so short? cuz u sleep so little." and now cuz ive got more time on my hands, ive started to sleep more.. sleep for leisure and they say "are u ok? how come nowadays keep sleeping? even computer also dont play? something bugging u is it? is it got gf?" seriously?!? WTF?!? -.-" isnt this what they want? for me to sleep more? and yet they are so paranoid about it...they are really driving me crazy!

hmm.. maybe i complain too much, but the grass is always greener on the other side.. its not my fault. right? anyway.. im procrastinating.. im supposed to b doing some productive work now haha. i probably should get started.

)x~
3:26 PM